I Am Real

I wanted things to be different, I wanted things to be true, I can't stand my life now, always wondering what's up with you. You say you can't tell me, exactly how you feel, Sometimes I can't believe that this is even real. I sort through the things you say, and believe me it's pretty thick, Just what does it mean, when you say I'm a really cool chick? I thought we were close, much more than just good friends, I feel like now you're trying just to tie up your loose ends. It pains me to think I'm not the only one, I wish you would have told me you were only having fun. Your wife will never know, She never will find out, I wish someone would have told me, that's what it was all about. I wish you would be honest- I think you owe me that, I want to be a real person to you, and not just Phat.