Was down boozing @ my work place!
With Anthony!
Then headed down to catch a flick at Cineleisure!

Damn stupid flick!!
4pm - 4.30pm - Waking up time!
5pm - 5.30pm - Get prepare and headed down to work..
6pm - 9pm - Happy Hours @ my work place...
(Which is the peak period of my work place, when you don't even have the time to smoke)
9pm - 3am - Still working!!
(This is when we can start to relax abit)
3am - 6am - Time To Relax And Have Fun
What i mean Relax and Have Fun?
Well.... Is just some normal supper with colleauge, yada-ing at some coffee shop in Geylang, go shopping @ Mustafa, K-box/Movies @ Cineleisure, Drinking and dancing at some club like Club Momo, Estee, Geographer and gambling at colleauge house...
Geez.... All that make me feel tired... Plus the amount of alcohol i consume at work...
Often felt Exhausted! So usually when i home, i will shower and collapse on my bed.. Then same shit rotate the very next day.. Oh! I mean the whole month!
My only OFF day will be on Sat! Where i need to go for my lion dance training, as the competition is on the August....
There's nothing but the good country surrounding me. The moon is shining brightly over the tree tops and its reflection on the water is such a beautiful sight. This is a perfect place for two people who are in love ... As I sit here thinking about all the time I have wasted, just sorting out my life -- I never really realized what loneliness was until you were gone. It seemed as though things were going so good until one day you left without a single trace. All of our plans for the future were shattered. There was to be no more of you and I together. You were gone, gone forever. I still remember the times we shared, but slowly these memories are going too. One day they'll be gone just like you ... I'm trying desperately to find you and bring you back to me. I dream about you every day and pray that you'll come back, but it's hopeless. There's no use in pretending, cause deep down in my heart I know you've found another. Someone to take my place, someone who'll love you -- but never like I loved you. And even though you've found another, I'll be true to you, even though you've asked me not to ... My life seems so meaningless now. I'm useless - why was I ever placed on this earth? What purpose do I serve? None, none whatsoever. People tell me that another will come along and take your place, but where is he? Who is he? Sometimes I feel like giving up on life, on love, on everything, but I can't. My spirits won't let me. I must go on - with or without you. The things that ever really meant anything to me are gone - vanished - never to come back to me again. All I have left now is my dignity, but slowly that is slipping away too ... I have to get a grip on myself -- I can't let this get me down. Life must go on. Maybe it's good that the memories are going, maybe then I can go on with my life as meaningless as it seems now. I don't hold it against you because you left me. It's like they always say, "Let him go and if he really loves you, he'll come back to you." But it's not that simple, now is it? The only way to having true love is to realize that someday it may be lost. Believe me, I realized that a long time ago ... The funny thing about all of this is if you were to come back - I actually don't believe I would take you back. I don't deserve such pain and torture. If you left me once, you could do it again ... Goodbye, my long lost love - maybe we'll meet again some day. |
The altar for you still shines, Dust gathers on the sides, But nothing can ever touch it. I was the high priestess in the temple of you. I need you more than I need cigarettes You appeal to my damaged radar, You entice my fragmented heart. I can't remember ever feeling so empty When I'm not in your arms. My black nails are chipping And my eyes are more haunted than I've ever let them appear. My dreams taste of you And I don't know my own pain anymore..... Intermingled and laced with the loss of you. I do need something And I know its you But I can't make my mouth Form the words that dance along my lips. That still shine in tear filled eyes. You are my missing pieces, You are my soul's brother. And I feel your presence when you drive by. I can't love another when I love you. I can't claim passion for life when I want to die. You took away all the essentials for my breath.... I have no heart, I have no passion, have no emotion. You carry it around in your chest, My heart still beating in you. If I was stronger I would tell you I need you even more Now that you're not here. |
Long Ago I knew you, And every memory I shared with you And how painful sometimes it is to remember Every Word Every Day Every Time I was with you And how close I felt to something special Something deep inside You were a part of me You had a part of My Soul My Heart My Mind And how every day I got up 'cause of you And everyday I couldn't wait to see you And how I regret those days I kept my silence And how I wish I would have said something said anything, to make you understand And then we left We stopped talking It was my fault. It was. And how I wish I could change that. And how sometimes late at night, I can't fall asleep cause I wish you were here And how I wrap myself so closely with that blanket you used Just to remember Just to feel something to feel a part of you And how sometimes I lay lavishing myself in tears Waiting, Longing, Yearning to feel your touch Just to be with you Just to hold you Just to kiss you.....once And how some mornings I wake up reaching out for you but you're not there And sometimes I imagine that you care And how once in a while I fantasize we'll talk once again And how I wish I could take my second chance to be near you. |
" To soar like an eagle " " To float like a feather " are just two ways I've heard people say that love makes them feel The times that I said " I love you " I felt like a wolf seeing the moon I feel like I have come from the darkness into the light of the moon but could do no more... I could see and feel it's light, and yet... never know it's touch or even its pure warmth I merely know its affect on others From where I was I could not reach it but I could see the birds flying to it Being so close to it and yet... still to far. Alas, all I could do was watch the others See, feel, and absorb the light without me Then when I look around and see no one I finally understand, I am truly alone...... |
Your music moved me Did things to my soul to make me love you My facade would crumble under your uncanny touch Slow Like Molasses Bittersweet in December I never meant to draw you in... Yet I don't think I can forget What my heart longs to forget... Cold walks in the rain The summertime moon And coffee at noon - it moved me My dirty laundry in your hands Whose eyes was I seeing you through? Sweet angel you could have been perfect But I didn't have the strength to hold you down. And I don't think I'll ever forget What this soul yearns to forget... Cold walks in the rain The summertime moon And coffee at noon. You moved me. |
If I could let you know The star that used to be ours Doesn't shine anymore How much I miss the way you used to kiss The nights we shred filled with joy and bliss If I could let you know The soft warm breeze that used to blow around me Is now gone and cold If I could let you know The flowers in my way Don't bloom like before Ever since the destiny took you away If I could let you know How much I appreciate the time When we were one The days when you were mine When everything around us was filled with life We were louder than love But I guess the heavens from up above didn't accept us falling in love I guess we wasn't meant to be but why did you come to me? I guess the destiny is the one to blame If I could let you know That I love you and that I miss you My beautiful angel and that if we couldn't be in this crazy world together Someday I will be up there with you forever. |
I see you in my sleep You haunt me like a ghost I dream of our moment together and my heart seems to fall Why doust thou Romeo cause me such pain? Or is it my soul that screams for such tragedy? I feel strangely numb and tears blind my eyes I am a puppet and I lay there in a coma With nothing to keep me wake I feel like walking away, maybe it'll be easier But so much of me wants to stay For me love is an elixir and you've given me a taste Then you disappear from my fairytale And leave me alone in the closet I wake up from my coma Still hearing your soothing voice Still seeing your handsome face Still feeling your gentle touch Although I feel such pain and I know that I have a long road to recovery I feel a sense of peace through my aching body |
I know you have been hurt But you've also been there for me Wish I couldn't see or feel Your needs I could heal so easily My pain hurts so much I know where you've been If I could only have one wish It would be for you to let me in We will both sit and wait Until our hearts grow old I can only pray and hope One day I'll be the one you hold Of all the times that we could be I think that you and I Could have had a real chance I think it was meant to be Over times we've both changed Our kids have gone too Still live our separate ways Can't help but look back on all the olden days It's many years later, still wondering why We never did it, we never did try Life is so precious and much too short To both live like this, both with a broken heart . . . |
So he sits and thinks Of who he wants to be What's inside of him He can't even see. He's life so perfect Has always been his dream - Something to never happen, Or at least it seems. If only he could have Just that one special chance To fall in love again With just one glance. The hurt, the pain Has dulled he light Cause the love of his life Didn't treat him right. Why did she make him cry Why couldn't she even try Why couldn't she tell him why So many times, She said Goodbye |
You were the first I'd had The one I'd wanted for all time And I was so glad When I finally made you mine We laughed and gazed It was all so new to us And one sweet night You said you were in love Then something went wrong You wouldn't speak And you wouldn't gaze Without even caring You said we were through Now you've found another And you share the stars above But I just have to say That I still love |