+ B a b y P e a +



Friday, March 31st, 2006

I was laying down on my bed and she appeared in my mind once again..

I don't know why..

Kept trying to re-direct my focus on others thing...

But it seem so hard to get it done..

Decided to take sleeping pill stop it..

I need a good rest..

Haben been resting well, ever since we ain't together.

Even by doing that..

I only manage to get 4 hours of sleep..

* S u l k *

This 4 hours of sleep...

Consist of me waking up on and off..

Why can't i just sleep like before?

I just want to rest.

But why can't i just have it?

Is heaven playing a joke on me?

What actually did i done to deserved all this?

Or am i just a fool for it?

Maybe i'm just too soft hearted..

Only to make myself more miserable..

Fate Entwines Us;

Destiny Bond Us;

Lurve Surround Us.

We use to be so close...

But now?

We look like a total stranger.

What actually caught up between us?

It wasn't like in the beginning..

Maybe time is just up...

Never thought it will happen that fast.

For this didn't cross my mind before.

Making me hard to accept it.

Is the fact that we ain't together.

But it will be a lie..

If i told you i don't love you anymore.

No matter what had happen..

May not have show it out.

But..

My love for you for u is still here..

Maybe it fade alittle..

Cause the distance between us is increasing..

You seem so close to me..

But in actual fact?

Reckon u understand how i felt for u.

Does it worth doing it?

Why want to do it?

Since your not been appreciated.

I'm exhausted...
Too tired for othaz stuff..
Hurt deep down..

I need to rest..

Long period of resting time..

I'll be better..

As time goes by..

Just hope it will heal fast..

So that can be back Standing on my feet

Walking down the path infront.

Rather then staying at the same spot.

I not giving up on it..

You are the one putting a stop to it..

I was afraid to love you forever, but when I did, I lost you forever



Friday, March 31st, 2006

I'm totally lost... My brain ain't working... Seem to be out of control. Got lotsa stuff in my head.... But i just can't seem to keep forcus and get it post up... Ain't feeling good.... "Sadness Fulfill My Life... Misery Is What I'm Left With... Pain Is All I Could Felt... Emptyness Flooded In... I Lost In The World Of Sorrow... Where Loneilness Is My Only Friend...."

Gotta know some stuffz that ache my heart... Causing me to behave like this.... "I Opened Myself To You... Took The Risk Of Getting Hurt... "

Which means what she had told me before was just lies..." Why Make Someone A Priority When They Only Make You An Option..."

Why is there a need of it? "I Wish That You Will Made Me Happier Than I Was Before But In Reality You Hurt Me..."

Was always there when you needed someone most... " When You Was Hurt.... I Was Always There For You... Now I'm Hurt... Where Are You? "

You don't understand how i felt for you... " You Will Never Know How Much Of My Tears Have Been Lost Over For You..."

Ain't the first time you have been hurting me.... " Who Do You Turn To When The Only Person Who Can Dry Your Tears Was The One Who Made You Cry.... "

I'm just a fool to you... Why am i so foolish? " I Cry For The Last Time That You Were Almost Mine, Cry For The Memories We Left Behind, Cry For The Pain, The Lost, I Cry For The Times I Thought I Had You... "

Maybe he what's you want.. " We Just Broke Off Not Long Ago, You Had Moved On, But Not Me.. I Still Love You... The Pain Maybe Unbearable, Hurts So Bad To See You With Your New Boyfriend. But It's Something I've To Live With.. "

All the best in your new relationship! " Relationship Are Like Knife They Cut You Real Deep... "

You stab me right thru my heart! " Not All Scars Show... Not All Wounds Heal... Sometimes You Can't Always See... The Pain Someone Feels..."

I'm deeply hurt this time round.... " I'm Gonna Smile Like Nothing's Wrong, Talk Like Everything's Alright, Act Like It's Just A Dream, And Pretend She's Not Hurting Me.. "

I need time to recover from this relationship... " And Every Time We Broke Up, We Turn Around And Make Up For It, This Can't Go On.... I Got To Move On, It's Not That I Don't Love You No More... "

Take care my Baby Pea~ " I'm Not Letting It Go, It's Just That I've Just Stopped Holding On, And I'm Slowly Drifting Away... "

+Days Are Going Fast But Time Spend Seem So Little+



Thursday, March 30, 2006


I was awake by a call...
A call by Peter.
Was telling that he will be heading ova soon.He offer to help me with my window film.It's a good deal.Since he's working in this line..Understand what it mean?Haa..Mean i ain't gonna pay for it.

Got up and get myself wash up..Geez..Is already 3pm..No time to lost uh.There still lotsa stuff need to be done.As usual no body was home.Make myself a cup of milo.Packed my room.

Was checking my mail..While waiting for Peter to come over.Have some conversation going on in msn.Trixy was asking about my blog.Geez..I think she gonna faint if she see it..Heks..But to my surprize she offer to get it re-done for me..

* W i n k s *

+ Thanks Trixy Mei Mei +

My doorbell rang at 4.40pm.Cool~Peter was here.Gonna get it done with quick.So that we can head out for dinner.Offer to help him.Help was been rejected.

He say: " Your help is appreciated, but i think it will help more if u would just sit down n watch."

Damn it~!

Ignore him and headed back to my room.Continue with my msn conversation.He got it done within 40 mins.WhOoo~That what we call a "Pro"Haa..

Head for showa..Get change and head out.As usual every thursday is a training day.No matter rain or shine.Haizz..

Training start 7.30pm.Still have ample of time for dinner.Reach my dance troupe ard 7.30pm.Kids were already down there waiting.But due to exam.Alot didn't turn up for it.

Went up to get change.Saw Snowy hiding under the chair.Oh... Snowy was a dog name."He" look kinda weird..Must have done some thing wrong again.Expected.."He" pee in da middle of the living room.

Got a scolding for it.

~ Snowy ~

I went down after changing of shirt..Ask those kids to do some physical training.

Knock It Down~!

Is not about bullying them.Is just to make them now physical strong.And to get them ready for army.Although some of them is just on 11 years old.Heks...

Meh Meh came down after that.Asking why i didn't get change fully.* S h o c k *I didn't expect that we will be training today.Usually the training now is for those younger kids.Geez..

Call Mouse to get me my shoe..Change into my shoe and advance with training.But took snap of the chubby boy.

That's Chubby Alan!

Hence our training commence..Was short of a player.Due to work he can't make it down.So we have to get another fellaz to replace his position.Was trying out new stunt..Lotsa funny funny stuffz happen..

A bunch of stupid fellaz

Training ended at 11pm...Was kinda shag out..Head up to get showa and change.Throw those clothes into the washing machine.In da meantime, was playing with Snowy.Laid those clothes.

Supper Time.* W i n k s *Head down to Jalan Besar.We had the famous "Sisscor Hand Cut"Was chatting for awhile after that.Alban Send me home after that.

+It's Just Ain't A Day For Me+



Wednesday, March 29, 2006

Today just ain't a day fer me.. Geez... Things turn out just isn't what i wanted.... Goodness... Was trying to get my skin done up... By kept encounter with stupid errors.. Hence i ask Trixy fer help.. Seek fer her help... Agree on getting it done fer me...

Cool~

Thks babe~

Your help is appreciated....Was following with what she done... By i still can't get it right... UmMm..... Still kinda short with some html code... Fer god sake.. I'm going crazy soon... Have been facing the com fer the past 12 hrs... Finally manage to get the skin done up.. Heks.... But there still some error that nidda to be done.. Gonna leave it till tomorrow.. Aint gotta mood to do it further...

Feeling hungry.... Like they say " A hungry man, is a angry man." Came to realise i ain't take any shit since da morning... Decided to call fer MacDonarld's Delivery... Was afraid to wait too long fer it... Hence i message a bud, asking whether he wanna head out fer supper... And he agree...

Went to the market nearby to grab some bite... Usually they are open fer business till 4am.. Guess what? Most of the stall are closed... Damn!!! Is only 2.20am... No choices left.. Gonna get a bite with what left with.. You should see the way i finish up with my food.. Was catching up with my bud after that..

Was about to leave when a friend call... Geez..... Is 3.30am... What so important that u nidda call now?

Well... No big issue uh... Just called to say ask on how to customize the friendster... As she was kinda forgot about it....

*Slap Forehead*

Lucky Fellaz... Fer i believe if i'm in da middle of my dream, i will !@$%^&*!#$% her up... I don't mind picking up call late at night if i aint asleep.... But not when i'm sound asleep, unless there something important... Heks... Is always better to sms the person first.

+Loneliness Is My Only Friend+



Wednesday, March 29, 2006

Receive a message from Weili. Ask whether i wanna catch a flick later.. Geezz... But i told him i was too tired... Nidda grab a nap first. Fer i din get a wink since yesterday.. Get back to him when i done with my nap.. But i seem so lethargic. Ain't gotta mood to get anything done.. Just feel like lazing on da bed..

* Y.a.w.n.S *

I felt the emptyness in my stomach.. Went to da kitchen to look fer food... No one seem to be around.. I'm all alone.. Felt the loneliness... It doesn't feel good.. Simply Hate it.... Went back to my room n switch on da tv.. but everything seem so dull.. Ever since she left, my life seem to be in black and white. I misses her lots... But i reckon she know..

Decided to give my pals a buzz... Aint wanna be in this stituation, whereby it will only make my day worse.. I don't wanna be alone... Fer memories will start flowing in... Nidda keep myself busy, so that my mind won't drift apart....

I'm all alone in this house.. When Loneliness is all i'm left with....

+Look Like Is Another Sleepness Night For Me+



Tuesday, March 28, 2006


Somehow I din getta sleep much again.
Another sleepless night.
Slept at 12pm n woke at 4pm.
Geez......
Wadda hell is going wrong with me??
something gonna be wrong some where.

Check my fone and found out it was in silent mode.
Got two missed called from Angie..
Damn...
We agree on going to get new PS2 game today.
But some how I forgot about it..
Called n apologize to her.
She nagged about it...
*%!^#$%#^!?


Was fiddling with my com when my fone ring.
Is was Edmund on da line.
He was asking whether we should head Fishing.
I say:"I'm Oritez with it.. Why not u called n ask Mouse?"
So, they decided to fish at the new jetty in Marina South.
And we agree to meet 8pm ova at Beach Rd.
The place where i used to worked.
Nidda get stuffz ova there..

All ready to fish... =P.


I'm reach around 8.20pm...
Damn..!
Not one was here yet.
Uncle Joe(my ex boss) was at the counter..
He look surprize to see me.
I was smoking outside the shop.
Joe came outta shop and chat.
We chatted awhile and procede into the shop.

Gosh....
The shop seem to be different after i left..
Look kinda messy uh.
OhHh...
Lotsa new stuff on da shelf...
*Looks tempting*
Controlled myself and head to get what is needed.
The guys reach about 20 minute later.
As usual, Edmund was the last to reach.
Finally got what we want.
Head Ova to da counter fer payment.

But Joe was outside of da shop
Shouted fer him.
He say: "Qing, go into the counter and do it yourself.."
I was like, Oh... Ok lor...
Geez...
Give myself the usual discount.
Head ova to Marina South Straight after that..

Dark.. The lights is where the jetty was..

Reach there around 9 plus 10pm.
Gonna get things ready before the full tide at 11.30pm.
Done with my stuff and help others..
Started to cast it out and wait.
Was playing with the camera while waiting..

He's WeiLi

What a Stupid Pose~!!

Looks Like a Couple Uh?


Around 12am, the rest of da guys came over.
Still no catch yet.
Was kinda *Moodless*
As it was dark and lotsa mosquito around

That's Edmund.. Aka Pui Kia~

That's Kai Qi....

That's Yang Lee... Aka mEh mEh~

Fooling Around....

Evon(Kai Ming GF) suggest going prawning at the nearby pay pond
Hence we decided to pack up and head ova
Heks...
We was there yesterday fer prawing oso.
We was up to mischive again..

Trying to catch prawns with our bare hand uh...
Muahahaha...
Overall the catch wasn't that good compare to yesterday.

Mr Tall... Who claim to be "PrawninG" Expert..

Mouse and Mr Tall...Fighting Fer the 1st catch.!.!

That's Kai Ming and Evon..

Lookin fer *Victim*.. lolx...

After all we only manage to get 8 pieces..
Compare to yesterday catch was way below it.
We caught 20+ pieces the previous night..
But some was caught using bare hand.
Heks...
But we did have lotsa fun Overall... =)